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Why Me?

 That question is one that I ask frequently and it should be asked frequently by all Christians. I am not talking about questioning that God is sovereign or in control of a situation. God has his plans and he has them for a reason. What I am talking about is giving thanks to God for his blessings.

 No matter how hard your life is, you don’t deserve your life. The only think that any of us deserve is death. We are sinful, bad people, that deserve death in hell. But if you are a Christian God has chosen you to receive his mercy and grace, and his atoning sacrifice on the cross. He has give you life, freedom, peace that passes understanding, love, joy, hope for tomorrow, he removes our guilt. He has given us more then we could ever of dared to dream of.

 A holy God chose ME. A holy God loves ME. A holy God gave his only son for ME. ME. A dirty, filthy, sinner, without the ability to do right. It doesn’t seem possible. I don’t deserve him. You don’t deserve. No one that has ever lived has deserved God except Jesus. Because we are all born into sin.

 Why would he save us? Because he loves us. I don’t quite know why. I don’t understand that he could love us, even while we were still sinners. (Romans 5:8) I don’t understand how he could let his perfect son die a painful death for me. I don’t understand how he could chose a wretch like me. I don’t think I will ever understand. Ever. Because it is just one of those things far beyond the reach of our small finite minds. It is something so mind blowing that I don’t think we can ever truly take hold of it.

 But in our messed up culture people, even those who claim to be Christians, don’t understand this. They don’t understand that they don’t deserve heaven. They don’t understand that the only thing they deserve is death and eternity in hell. I breaks my heart that in our churches religion is so strong. The belief that we can somehow reach up to God or that we can attain heaven by ourselves. Religion is man trying to reach up to God. I am not a religious person. I know I can never reach up to God. I can’t even try. But God reached down to me. He came down and lifted me up when I was dirty and filthy and depraved.

 Using Ezekiel 16 as an example, I was bloody and unwanted, cast out to die. Then he found me and had compassion on me. He took me in his arms and washed be and clothed me. He looked on me with love. Though I didn’t deserve it. Though no one wanted me. Though I was not worthy of the love of anyone. He rescued me.

 Why me? There is no logical answer that God chose me instead of the person next door. But I thank God every day that he chose me. He didn’t have to, but before I was born he predestined me to receive his grace. It is something that we are not even supposed to know. It is a mystery of God. I encourage you all to thank him for it everyday. If you have been saved by him, it is wrong not to thank him. At the risk of repeating myself, God is holy and we could never deserve him. We need to bow our knees and thank the God of earth and sky for rescuing us. We should constantly be amazed. We need to bask in the wonder of the cross. And let everyday reflect that he has saved us.

Love in Christ,

Olivia <><

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Baptism

Well before I go to bed (which I should already be in since my friend is coming at 8 am tomorrow!) I want to share something really cool that is going on in my life. I am getting baptised!!!! I am very excited for this. 1) to show publically my faith in Christ and my new life in him. 2) because my dad is baptising me and it is going to be his first baptism!!!! So I am really looking forward to Sunday. My grandma is also coming (she lives about 5 hours away and doesn’t get to visit us much.) with my cousin. It will be great.

 So I want to explain baptism to those of you who do not know the concept. Baptism is a public sign of new life in Christ. In our church (Baptist) we do the whole body going under the watter. It symbolizes dying with Christ and being resurrected with Him. That may sound strange, but think of the verse that says, “Pick up your cross and follow me” or “I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me”. I think those two verses explain it nicely. We know have our identity be with and in Christ, and baptism publicly announces that you have taken on Christ and he is now who lives in you. The coming back out of the water also symbolizes the regeneration of our spirit and our new life in Christ.

 So that is what baptism means (simply, there are probably many books on this topic). So know I will just share my testimony.

 By God’s grace, he allowed me to be brought up in a Christian family where the gospel was preached. I knew all my life that Jesus loved me and had died so that I could go to heaven, and I loved Jesus. I remember praying with my mom to accept Christ when I was really little, but she had said that I had done it even before then.

 When I was about seven or so it became something that was real to me. I understood God’s grace better and I knew he had a plan to use me. It may seem strange that a seven year old knows that God is going to use her is amazing ways, but that was (and is) me, strange. I actually had a dream that I was in some sort of orphanage and I was all grown up and working with kids. We had some weird project we were doing with spoons (that part really has no importance, it was very strange) and we were trying to hide them. So I told this one kids to hide them then locked the double doors. Then all of a sudden a red angle appeared. (I don’t know why) but I took him out unto this little Terrance (or some sort of ledge on the side of the building and I started singing songs I knew from VBS and it was pitch black and I could hear the whole world singing along. It was wonderful, until my mom woke me up! Now it was a really strange dream, but now that I am older I am even more freaked out by it because I want to be a music teacher to orphans and really poor kids. But later that day I rededicated my life to Christ, really knowing that he would use ME to serve him. I put it as a little girl, “it seems like the angels are really singing and rejoicing this time”.

 Now that I am getting older his grace is becoming more and more magnificent to me (you should be able to tell by my posts!)!!! My love and passion for Christ is growing steadily, and sometimes even in leaps and bounds. And he is using me! I want my life to be a testimony of what God can do with a person who is ready to serve Him! That is probably my biggest life goal, I would even call it my holy ambition: “to keep an open hand to whatever God has in store for me and to serve him with my heart, mind and strength. To use all I do to bring glory to him and to chase after the things he loves, like justice, kindness, mercy, care of the orphans and widows, wisdom, humility, ect.” (note, this is the first time I actually have wrote this down though it has always been in the back of my mind.)

 So that is my testimony. It is one that I love to think about, because it reminds me that even though I wasn’t some murderess or drug dealer, I have still been saved from torment in hell. We all need to dwell on God’s grace frequently, actually, everyday. I encourage you all to read C.J. Mahaney’s book, The Cross Centered Life. It is really short so it is a fast read, but it has some really good, life changing stuff in it. So I hope you enjoyed hearing my testimony and about my up coming baptism. Please pray that my grandma has a safe trip up here. ~Soli Deo Gloria~

In Christ Alone,

Olivia

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A Message To My New Brothers and Sisters (Gospel)

 Greetings! Welcome. I had a friend that was wondering about a post for you new believers out there to pass on to her friend so here I am. (Despite how often I tease you… you are still one of my close friends, even if you are short!!!)

 Well first I want to address what it means to be a Christian.

Being a Christian has nothing to do with you, or me. It has everything to do with the cross and Jesus’ sacrifice for our sins. We are all horrid (I love that word and I don’t know why) sinners that have done something wrong. We have all committed high treason against a holy and perfect God so therefore we all deserve to die. That may seem harsh, but it’s the truth. I deserve to die and rot in hell, as do you.

 That leaves us pretty depressed right? I know it leaves me feeling empty and scarred and yicky. But there is good news, it’s called the gospel. The gospel is just what I said: good news. This good news is that someone paid your debt for you. Someone died your death for you, and his name is Jesus. 2,000 years ago Jesus died a horrible death and bared all your sins, just so that YOU could live. And or course, he didn’t just stay dead, he came back to life, then went into heaven.

 Now I want to be clear. You are not saved by ANYTHING you did. Not even praying a prayer saved you. ONLY the death of Jesus on the cross is what saved you and him choosing you to receive eternal life. ONLY! I can not stress this enough! I know plenty of people that have taken out “fire insurance” (get it, hell, fire, lol) yet they have not been impacted by the holy spirit. It is the holy spirit’s work in us (for those of you who don’t know, the holy spirit is the helper that Christ has sent to Christians. Part of the trinity, it is truly the spirit of God in us.) that allows us to accept Christ. If someone has been truly saved, if they truly understand that they needed to be forgiven and they were forgiven, a life can not stay the same.

 A Christian is no longer “Part of this world” (2 Corinthians 5:17). They now have Christ living inside them. I want to clarify something. The second you become a Christian, the second Christ lives in you, you are 100% saved and forgiven. (I talk about this on my post “Out of Goats”) There is nothing more you can do to make him love you more. NOTHING. That is truly amazing. We are loved totally by Christ. I know my love doesn’t work that way. I love my sister more when she actually closes the door after barging into my room without asking. Or when she leaves me alone. So thankfully I am not God. His love is FAR beyond human capabilities.

 I assume that most of you know what has been said. If not, please contact me! I would love to talk to you more about this! I am ALWAYS available!!! If you don’t have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ and would like to know more about Jesus’ death and about being a Christian, please talk to me. The next post will have some advice to new Christians. I’ll start that soon. And just to let you all know, I don’t know how much time I will have to post. I am working on writing a script and have some other story ideas waiting to get out. Also my grandma is coming for my baptism this weekend (I am going to be the first person my dad EVER baptises!!!). Also I am going to camp and so I will be posting, I just don’t know how frequently. Soli Deo Gloria

In Christ Alone,

Nobody <><

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